In the tournament room at the Go Centre
Page 133. Frame 2. Balloon 1. Master Touya (flashback in Sai's mind): It'll be with no handicapping.
133.3.1. Hikaru: I don't think he managed to clearly see your ability, but I think it's amazing that Touya's dad managed to figure out that I wasn't just playing a reckless game of Go.
134.1.1. Hikaru: Oh sure, you want to play a no-handicap game too.
134.1.2. Hikaru: I wonder if it'll ever happen.
134.2.1. Sai: You wonder?! What! Hikaru!
134.2.2. Hikaru: Yeah, well, I'll make it happen somehow, someday.
134.3.1. Sai: When is "someday"?
134.4.1. Hikaru: How should I know?
134.5.1. Hikaru: That was an important game for me too, you know!
134.5.2. Hikaru: Your selfishness ruined it for me! You understand?
135.1.1. Sai: ...
135.2.1. Hikaru: Oh...
135.2.2. Hikaru: Um...
135.3.1. Sai: I am very sorry.
135.3.2. Hikaru: Hmph.
135.3.3. Hikaru: It's your fault anyway for glomming onto me in the first place.
135.4.1. Hikaru: Was Shuusaku better? Didn't he let you do all the playing, not like me?
135.5.1. Hikaru: I wonder why Torajirou didn't try to play himself. He was planning on being a Go player, right? What a useless guy. [Sits on bed, picks up copy of The Key to Tactical Go.
136.1.1. Sai: That's... That was...
136.1.2. Sai: all my fault.
136.2.1. Sai: I was all nervous about returning to this life... I didn't know I was going to come back yet again to meet you, Hikaru, so I really pushed Torajirou hard to get my way and not waste that second chance.
136.2.2. Hikaru: Oh, I see.
136.3.1. Hikaru: Torajirou's early death
136.3.2. Hikaru: might have been your fault too?
136.4.1. Sai: N...
136.5.1. Sai: No, it can't be! Torajirou was a very good man!
136.5.2. Sai: When people around him were dying one by one in the epidemic, he took care of them, fully aware of the risk of contagion.
137.1.1. Sai: And then...
137.2.1. Hikaru: ...
137.3.1. Sai: Torajirou was very clever, but above all a truly kind-hearted man.
137.4.1. Hikaru: [Throwing himself back down on the bed with his book] Well, I'm stupid and not kind-hearted at all!
138.1.1. Sai [thinking]: I wonder why the gods brought me back to Hikaru.
138.2.1. Sai [thinking]: Hikaru's progress is impressive, but I never get to play anyone.
138.3.1. Hikaru [thinking]: Hmph.
138.3.2. Hikaru [thinking]: He's hopeless.
138.4.1. Hikaru [thinking]: I guess I'll have to take him somewhere and cheer him up.